My Puppy died a month ago.... It is different for me because my dog was my life. My animals and my cars are my life. I even am a head veterinary assistant. But anyway. It has been really hard getting over her death because she was only 15months old. So now I am in debt on medical bills for her...

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Aww, is that a boxer! I love boxers, i have two. sorry to hear that man. last time i cried miserably was in May. My two boxers had puppies. 8 of them, 7 female and one male. Such cute little things. My sister didn't think it was important to neuter or spay the dogs. Our female dog had puppies when she was just under a year old.

7 were healthy and came out perfect. the last one came out but with brain problems. didn't get enough oxygen while in the fetus because she was stuffed in the corner without much air. she was half blind but the cutest one of all. so sincere and did nothing but sleep. also the most mature! the other dogs would try to kill her because she was weak (dogs have a natural instinct to kill the weak, survival of the fittest) we had her alive for a good month and half. thought everything was ok, she ate well, drank and we bottle fed her everyday. i primarily took care of her, and one day before she was put to sleep i spent 3 hours with her just admiring her and playing with her. next day i took my tiburon to the shop and after i came back my sister broke the sad news. the poor little thing was put to sleep because she went crazy yelping and epilepsy without stopping whatsoever, bathrooming... my sister had no choice. took her to the vet and agreed that it was the best thing to do to save the 1 month old puppy from leading a very painful life full of medications in the future. i cried for a few hours. face was a mess and all... sad story i still miss the poor girl everyday. but it's life. it's a gift

i was so happy she was able to live for that month and half, see the big world from those tiny little eyes. still tear up from it occasionally but you can't be sad you're going to die, you have to be happy you're alive. i was happy she came out breathing and we were lucky to have all 8 come out.

Pandy, try and filter it out. try messing with the evaporation system for two years. did everything to the best of your ability and 150 miles later that stressful orange light appears again. i felt like crying, but never did.

 

After finding the perfect girl (on paper) in 2004, my relationship with her officially ended in 2005. I ended it because she was a CRUEL, manipulative woman when angry, but perfect at all other times. I really loved her and she really loved me. I just couldn't take the heartlesness. My head just said...Aviv ....you shouldn't be with someone like this. There are nicer people out there who will not take pleasure in seeing you hurt.

My head fought my heart and lost. I burried my feelings so deep, even I denied them for 2 years. I did not acknowledge that I still loved her till two weeks ago, when she told me she found someone else. We'd talk every single day till around a month ago.

It is the hardest feeling in the world to realize you've lied to yourself for so long. I lost her to some monkey boy who she and I used to make fun off not 6 months ago. I really cried. I still cry. I know that we probably wouldn't have worked out in the long run, but I feel SO terrible knowing that, even today, I still miss her laughter.

NEVER end a relationship unless you're 100% sure in your heart and mind. And once you end it, DONT talk to the person again till you're happy and moved on. It's not worth the pain.

 

i met a really sweet girl in feb 2006. started dating her and was having a blast. for whatever reason, we started clinging to each other and i asked her to marry me after 3 months of dating. she said yes and moved in 3 months later (august). from that day on, shit went downhill. i started to realize soon that this wasn't right. add onto that i'm doubting where i am in life right now. i have a fantastic life, everything i need, and a fantastic opportunity at work (i work for my father, the managing partner of a $3MM accounting firm who wants to retire in 5 years), but i'm feeling unfulfilled everyday. i'd been holding the stress inside so long, that little things have been making my eyes water up, so i fought the tears. things like an emotional part of a movie, or seeing someone else crying.

the day after christmas, i couldn't hold it anymore, and when my fiance and i started talking, i broke it off with her. she moved out that night and i felt so relieved. i slept like a baby for the first night in a couple months. the next night, she came back to get her stuff and i started crying my eyes out while she was here. knowing i'd crushed her, coupled with thinking i was going to marry her in 10 months (though she's not the right girl), and all the other shit that's stressing me out, i started crying like a little girl. it lasted for about 2 hours and it all came out, so i grabbed a bottle of vodka, threw on some nine inch nails and got over it. i've felt unbelievably relieved since then.

it's more manly to cry than to hold it in and take it out on other people...i've learned that the older i got.

 

^ you know what if a girl won't take a guy like you with a good future than you can only hope you'll meet someone even better.

i learned that that it's hard to let go. when you're a child you think you've got everything but when you get older and you're without someone special you grow to become saddened in the fact that the right girls are so hard to find.

all this time i wished for more nice optimistic female friends but 80% of the females where i live in the entire state are or turned into b****es, seriously. even the girl i've loved for the past 7 years is probably a b**** and there's only one person who knows that and we don't talk anymore because he went into drugs... i just want someone to love and to hold, but you know what? that won't come until i'm making some bank and i won't settle for a cheap job.

when you start making bank, you'll be well enough to have forgotten the past and will be fit and find a better girl. if not then you probably have a bogus job and don't have any time to find anyone, or also have as high expectations as i do. wink1.gif

 

i havent cried in three years. my good friend died in a car crash. but when i went to the open casket i started to cry. i felt like a girl but i just couldent belive that my friend is not around no more, he was a good kid. me and all my friends would hang out and go out to eat and till this day its still wierd not having him around. makes me think twice about things. life is short......

but i think crying does help...

 

I don't usually share my personal life with you guys, the internet isn't much of an outlet/vent for me, but what Screwdriver said especially struck a chord with me this morning.

I got a delivery notice a few days ago from UPS. I wasn't expecting anything, so I wasn't sure what it was. I've been working alot and didn't get a chance to go to the UPS store until this morning, and when I got there they said that after 3 days they have to send the package back to the sender, so it was on it's way back. I asked where it originated from since I had no clue what it was, and it was sent from the city my ex is living in. Well, i'm sure it's probably a box of some of my stuff that she still had... but after I got back out to my car with the tracking number and a UPS phone number to call to get the package rerouted back to me, I decided that if there was a note or something from her in that box, I didn't want it. I didn't want to have anything to do with her. I threw the paper out the window, i'm letting it return to sender. I'm not happy, and definately not moved on from her yet. My thoughts in the car were pretty well right on with what Screwdriver said. Anything she might have to say isn't worth the pain or the trouble.

 

When im sad I get angry and full of hatred and take it out on everyone around me, I dont mean to it just happens. When I try to control it my anger gets much worse and I do alot of things im not proud of, maybe itd be better if I could cry...

Women can really take it out of you bro, and alot of times its hard for us (guys) to realize what girls are actually thinking because its damn near impossible, or like trying to fit a Delta in an RD. So shit often gets really screwed up. You will find someone who is right for you, dont let it get to you. Dont think that you need to be with someone immedialty, just take your time and get the important things in your life outa the way... thats atleast how Ive managed.

 

quite a few times lately,Mom died 2 weeks ago(52),dad died 6 months ago,(57),Nan & granddad 5&3yrs ago,3 uncles...Basically buried 8 family members in the last 6 years, Now I'm am the oldest surviving in my family...really sucks bad!